Gado-gado

Found a poem today:

Unguarded

I’ve let my guard down
For the first time in my life
I’ve said feelings

That I don’t usually say
Like saying I love you…
I truly do!

I shouldn’t have
Shouldn’t have
Give in too much
If my heart!
My poor heart, will just be crushed!

posted by nda @ 2:09 PM

wuihh, pengen banget rasanya having a week or two weeks of vacation. Ambil hari senen ini vacation sih, hmm...but kayanya banyak banget yg mesti dilakuin hari monday ini deh. Ganti tires, ganti oli, perpanjang registration huehehe. Gile banyak banget yg mesti dilakuin, padahal mestinya hari senen cuma buat relaxxx.

Have you ever do something really bad that you never think that i would be that bad? first, you think that it's fun or maybe you did not think far at all when you did it.
Playing with someone's heart is really terrible and i really regretted it.

Maaf ya, i think i hurt you too much even without me realizing it. No excuse, i should not have played or even given hope to you.

Ahh, i need to talk to you one of this days to say that I am sorry. Truly i am sorry J.

posted by nda @ 1:09 PM

Four Letter Words

I never know
How these four letter words mean so much
Why whenever these four letter words appear on the web
My eyes and heart glazed upon them
Confused? So I was…

These four letter word stick deep like a bee with its honey
Without it, the bee withers and die

People say this and that
So many voices, so many advices
But yet I know another four word letters
That lingers deep in me
That always asks, “Are you sure?”
That always asks, “Are you the one?”

I laughed whenever my heart screams in agony
Mostly because of our memories together
Sweet like a flower field
But full of thorn that brings out pain

Haha, I say
Know your weakness they say

I can only smile
When birds fly and sing together
Will I ever find my dearest heart?

Sewing my heart together
But out of what thread?
Another four word letters?
I don’t think so

Sometimes I wonder
Which comes first?
Love or hate?
Which part of heart blossoms one
And which part blossoms another

“I love you”
Sounds romantic, yet…
Out of many lips, these words mean nothing


“I am sorry”
Sounds sincere, yet…
Out of many lips, these words mean nothing

*sigh*
Why does one pursue happiness?
Can you be alone and also happy?
I wonder this too

“I am sorry because I love you”
Sounds poetic…
But if that’s what one truly feel
Then why the sorry

*sigh*
“Be happy” people said once
“Be strong” people said twice
Will you be able to sew back a broken heart?
Can a great surgeon
Sew back a broken heart?

Lord, I am sure You can
Can You sew back my heart?
Back in time where it was whole?
Back in time where it was red with life?

posted by nda @ 2:01 PM