Gado-gado

Found a poem today:

Unguarded

I’ve let my guard down
For the first time in my life
I’ve said feelings

That I don’t usually say
Like saying I love you…
I truly do!

I shouldn’t have
Shouldn’t have
Give in too much
If my heart!
My poor heart, will just be crushed!

posted by nda @ 2:09 PM

wuihh, pengen banget rasanya having a week or two weeks of vacation. Ambil hari senen ini vacation sih, hmm...but kayanya banyak banget yg mesti dilakuin hari monday ini deh. Ganti tires, ganti oli, perpanjang registration huehehe. Gile banyak banget yg mesti dilakuin, padahal mestinya hari senen cuma buat relaxxx.

Have you ever do something really bad that you never think that i would be that bad? first, you think that it's fun or maybe you did not think far at all when you did it.
Playing with someone's heart is really terrible and i really regretted it.

Maaf ya, i think i hurt you too much even without me realizing it. No excuse, i should not have played or even given hope to you.

Ahh, i need to talk to you one of this days to say that I am sorry. Truly i am sorry J.

posted by nda @ 1:09 PM

Four Letter Words

I never know
How these four letter words mean so much
Why whenever these four letter words appear on the web
My eyes and heart glazed upon them
Confused? So I was…

These four letter word stick deep like a bee with its honey
Without it, the bee withers and die

People say this and that
So many voices, so many advices
But yet I know another four word letters
That lingers deep in me
That always asks, “Are you sure?”
That always asks, “Are you the one?”

I laughed whenever my heart screams in agony
Mostly because of our memories together
Sweet like a flower field
But full of thorn that brings out pain

Haha, I say
Know your weakness they say

I can only smile
When birds fly and sing together
Will I ever find my dearest heart?

Sewing my heart together
But out of what thread?
Another four word letters?
I don’t think so

Sometimes I wonder
Which comes first?
Love or hate?
Which part of heart blossoms one
And which part blossoms another

“I love you”
Sounds romantic, yet…
Out of many lips, these words mean nothing


“I am sorry”
Sounds sincere, yet…
Out of many lips, these words mean nothing

*sigh*
Why does one pursue happiness?
Can you be alone and also happy?
I wonder this too

“I am sorry because I love you”
Sounds poetic…
But if that’s what one truly feel
Then why the sorry

*sigh*
“Be happy” people said once
“Be strong” people said twice
Will you be able to sew back a broken heart?
Can a great surgeon
Sew back a broken heart?

Lord, I am sure You can
Can You sew back my heart?
Back in time where it was whole?
Back in time where it was red with life?

posted by nda @ 2:01 PM

My static's prof decided to hand back our quiz today. I did well. We have another quiz coming on Wed, and thermo's quiz on friday waaaaaaaa. My thermo's prof is a killer, uggh, everyone in campus said so, but it's not like that I have other prof to choose, because other classes are full L. Took kind of light course load this quarter, I need to adjust myself of the change from semester system to quarter, I heard quarter system goes by super fast, and it seems so. Finished my static homework for today. I still have not read the CAD book for tomorrow, but I guess I can read it in the morning before going to class.

Today, I sat with Peter in the hall near gaming lounge at student center. When we were talking, I noticed a girl in the background facing me talking to her friends. I swear she just look like my first crush. I kept looking at her at times, she seems didn’t realize that I were looking at her. If only I have the courage to go up and ask her name and number, sigh.

I took a nap about 3 hours today, funny thing I dreamt washing a huge aquarium with a lot of fishes. J. Interesting....
Woke up by 9 pm and my stomach started to growl.

You know, female can sometime be cruel to male, it's not like people perception that male uses female bla bla bla. Here's a little story. My sister starting to date this guy in early 30 and she is 20 years old, She doesn't even like him but I guess he likes her. She always yells at him regularly, the guy takes surprisingly well. She treats her like junk, only speaks to him nicely whenever she wants something. I gave up trying to talk to her about it, guess it’s none of my business. Yesterday I told her it’s bad karma to treat someone like that. She just ignored me.

I love animate, just finished watching Naruto ep. 52 and Matentei Loki Ragnarok ep. 26. I love both series. Sigh, I wish Naruto’s anime goes faster than the manga.

posted by nda @ 1:25 AM